Looking forward...looking back..

Well another year is nearly over.
Both my boys have grown (including Ryley!!)
I have returned to work.
Our renovations are still not finished.

My house is still a mess.
There are toys everywhere.
I still keep piling the boys new clothes into their drawers without removing the stuff that doesn't fit them.

Ryley is still on the Ketogenic Diet, though may come off it next year (gasp!)
He started walking this year!
He loves school so much that he would rather live there than here!

Braeden has all of a sudden become a toddler (when did that happen?).
He can tell us what he wants using a combination of words and signs, and he chatters away to anyone who will listen.
He is a very kind and sensitive soul, who has reminded us to smile.

Who knows what 2010 will bring for us. Plenty of challenges. I am certain of that. In fact, there is no escaping that. That is just the reality of our lives.
So I have a few goals..

1. To try and be more patient. Most people who may look from the outside in, may think I am a very patient person. And, I guess I am in some ways. But I personally think that I need to be more patient.

2. To try and find some time for myself and some time for me and David. We joke all the time that the last time we spent any time together just the two of us was when I was in labour with Braeden. Not really that funny I guess considering what we deal with on a daily basis. So I am going to try and find some respite.

3. I want to be able to run the Lake (6km). I haven't run for years. In fact, this year, I have barely had time to do any exercise. So part of finding time for me, will be to challenge myself to start running again. Eventually I would love to participate in something like a run for charity or something. But I won't get ahead of myself just yet!

4. To keep encouraging Ryley and Braeden to learn and experience the world. Your life is only as good as the stories you can tell, and the only way to have stories to tell is to experience things!

So, not many goals. I think the main thing is that we can continue to provide our kids with all the love and support that they need.

I am going to take a little blogging break. Not sure for how long. I am not in a very good place at the moment in terms of coping and I feel like all I blog about is negative things. I need a break. I need some sleep. Neither of those things seem to be coming anytime soon. At the moment, I am so physically exhausted that I feel sick all the time.
I will be back in the New Year.

Anna xx

Comments

  1. SmithsholidayroadDecember 31, 2009 at 3:46 PM

    Anna, thinking of you xo hope you get some well deserved rest and respite so that you and David can stop joking about the labour ward! lol
    BRon xo

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  2. LaurenDecember 31, 2009 at 4:04 PM

    Anna,

    great goals and great 2009. Glad to have met you this year, that is for sure.

    And... one of my goals is to start running again too. We can hold each other accountable! Ha! I want to be able to run 5ks in the spring so I need to get started. I think the last time that I consistently exercised was before Izzy.

    Dont take too long of a blog break. I will miss you.

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  3. UnknownDecember 31, 2009 at 7:45 PM

    From reading your post, you and your family have had some great achievments this year. I hope that you and David get a well deserved break in 2010, and Yes I agree with Lauren, dont take too long a break, we will miss you... but I understand the need to take some time out from it. Reall hoping to meet you, David, Ryey and Braeden in 2010 X

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  4. Juni / JenniferDecember 31, 2009 at 11:30 PM

    Hey Anna,
    Happy New Year to you and the boys. Just wanted to say that taking a break is good when you need it, and respite is good!!!... but talking about negative things or your negative feelings isn't necessarily bad - sometimes we have things to feel negative about and need permission to not be positive and put on a happy face ALL the time.
    Anyhow.. please do what is best for you, but I just wanted to say that if you feel sick and exhausted all the time - it's ok to feel negative about that. Anyone would. XXXX I'm sure you know what I'm saying.
    Hope you get some rest and I look forward to catching up next week.

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